A smile shows my other face.

Im sorry readers but i really need to vent everything here. No one wants to listen to me and i fucking hate myself now. Im always a loner. Im real or in virtual. Haix. I always feel like crying, idk whats wrong with me too. I want someone that can really listens to me. I really want to die now. I feel like killing myself now. I dont want to walk through my life. I have many fucking problems and huge amount of stress going through my mind. I wonder when will i be able to ending my fucking miserable life. Everything i do, no one wants to do with me. Fuckmyworld fuckmylife. Im a fucking loner. When will i really meet someone that can go through everything with me. No one wants to help no one cares to listen to me. Everyone just pierce a dagger into my back and walks away with a smile on their face. What the hell am i in the world? Am i invinsible or what? I pity my mother for giving birth to such a bitch like me. I feel like shit in this world. I just want someone to know who i am. When will someone put a real smile on my face? When will i be a real girl in this world. Now im just shit. What am i?